And it felt great!
I’m back in the game my friends!
Healthy me here I come.
So I taking this week off because of my back injury gave me wayyy too much time to think.
For much of my life I’ve gone out of my way to dress conservatively and to hide my boobs and my butt. However, lately I’ve been thinking…maybe I want to be sexy.
Maybe I want to intimidate people with my curves.
Maybe I want to wear a romper with heels to a Holiday Party.
Maybe I want to wear a dress that shows a lot of cleavage.
Maybe I want to look in charge with my makeup done and with my eyebrows thick.
Maybe I want to look like a woman.
I guess I just want to look more in charge of myself. I kind of want to be intimidating to other women (which is bad tisk tisk on myself) and I kind of want to be more outwardly sexual. I kind of feel like I should break out of this shell I’ve been in and try to express myself a bit more in ways that make me feel alive rather than comfortable.
And my body is virtually useless.
I am 5’5” and right now I am 188 lbs. (Used to be 214!) When I began this endeavor I never set a goal weight for myself. I was just like “alright lets do this”. However, now that I know weight loss is possible I feel like setting a goal weight would be something to keep me inspired.
The only problem is…idk what that should be. I’m guessing 150-160 lbs. I think I will roll with that.
Still not sure.